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It all started one day in Mrs.Randolph's 4th grade Science class. My cousin Victoria and her bestfriend Lydie were making fun of this poor girl, that never really spoke to anyone. I finally couldn't take anymore and told them to shut up, that the girl couldn't be that bad. I walked over to her and began a conversation. A conversation, that at the time i didn't know, would effect me for the rest of my life.We became bestfriends and we were hardly ever apart. Soon did I know her mother had been looking for house's in a far away place...a place of cows and long forgotten roads. Dade City was the smallest town that we had ever been to in our lives and we cried because we knew that we would never get to see eachother again. So I took it upon myself to make sure that every moment I had, I'd spend it with her. Summer came and I stayed in Dade city for weeks on end. July came around and my mother and grandmother came up to visit for the fourth of july. Both my mother and grandmother fell in love with dade city and could look no more at a house that was a block away from her's. All my dreams had come true, I moved down the street from my true bestfriend. 3 years had already gone by, but I felt as if I had known her all my life. Going to a new school and meeting new people was hard, but having her by my side made everything worth it. Between boyfriends and movies every friday night, we still shared our bond that collected from day 1. Then 8th grade hit me and it hit me hard. April 18, 2003 my grandmother passed away and my boyfriend of a year and a half had dumped me. But on top of that my bestfriend/my sister told me that she has never felt close to me since 6th grade. At this point in time I was devastated. I tried everything in my heart to make everything better, but it seemed like the more I tried the more things were messed up. Roise had taken my bestfriend/my sister away from me and changed her in so many ways. She became someone I didn't even know. I was fine, but I still looked after her until her mother decided to move to Reno Nevada. I cried a couple nights straight. This time I knew I couldn't follow her. My ninth grade year was torn all part. Soon to hear that things weren't working out in Reno, they decided to move back. I finally had my sister back. But little did I know that while she was up there she changed alot, not just her boobs, but a different attitude towards life. I didn't think much of it and we went on with our lives. Since her mother didn't like Pasco High, she attented Bishop. It didn't matter to me, as long as she was back I didn't care what high school she went to. My 10th grade yaer became lots of trips back and forth picking her up from her school, but I would do it all over again just to see her smile as I pulled up. 11th grade finally struck and she was now allowed to come to Pasco High. The first part of the year was awesome, but coming towards the end and where I am right now have changed in so many ways. Looking back on all the memories, laughs, pictures and gifts it brings tears to my eyes that everything is finally gone down hill. 8 years of a friendship that could work through anything, yet it feels as if now, has no hope. But no matter what I will ALWAYS love her and never forget what one little conversation has done to my whole life.

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okay so nothing is going right anymore
my ex is going out with the bitch of all bitches
&& i so don't wana deal with her
my boyfriend is moving into her sister's apt
&& i'm supposed to be okay with this.
i basically lost my sister/best friend
&& apparently not allowed to have fun anymore
even though i'm in high school and have a year left 
&& you're supposed to do that sort of thing.
me && way argue now since something happened
&& i'm so sick && tired of it but i love him dearly.
idk what to do && no one can really help me out with this.
hopefully summer will help things or jus make things worse.
oh well whatever i'm used to being hurt, so i think i'll be okay.

on a better note (( if there is one))
summer has started out with a bang
&& it's been great.
i had fun with kegan at the beach
&& i loved going to the Rascal Flatts concert!
♥♥♥

-Emily

i really hate how i feel right now...

basically....

im in love with this kid who doesnt love me back

we act like we are together and it sucks ass...

i have cried 3 times tonite

ITS NOT COOL

buttttt he doesnt care coz he got off the phone with me while i was startin to cry to go hang out with his cuz and then i didnt say bye and he called me back and left a bullshit voice message

yeah BTW i hate Ryan..he's a manwhore!!

newho on a funnier note..sean ridgeway has a mullet now apparently...faggot love always, emily

wow i hate you yes you....lol jk....im bored...

this weekend was weird...

nothin like an immature chick and her mom yellin at me...good times!!

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[	music	|	"come alittle closer" dierks bentley	]

1 month for me n bryan!! hehe yay!!

yeah i sound lame..stfu! hehe =)